Gaining (non)closure?

As I shipped off the second and last cooler full of frozen breast milk this week, I found no sadness in the end of that connection. It seems that my sweet surro baby is so far from me that at times, I wonder if it was all a big, wonderful and scary dream. And then, the memories flood my mind and heart and tears fill my eyes. It seems she's so near and yet so far. What a strange place to be in. There are times when I long for my little Mika in my arms and at my breasts, but mostly, I am full of joy that she is with her mommy and daddy and enjoying the life she was meant to have.

Now, as my life is returning, so is my body and I'm enjoying new challenges and rising to the occasion. For one whole year, my strength was all in surrender......that beautiful yin energy that is passive and feminine. I am now, once again, able to let the dominant, yang energy come out and admiring how it so much more fully compliments my character.