So, little girl has her back against my back most of the time, which means that her limbs are facing my belly. Which means.........I feel EVERY movement! She has a habit of waking around 6 or 7 AM but the other night I was restless, tossing all night. Apparently it affected her sleep too because she didn't stir until 8:30 AM! Glad to know that for the first time, I will get to SLEEEEPPP after having a baby.
I am now 22.5 weeks and am eagerly looking forward to the birth, but have a long time to go. There is this feeling that I have that it will be very fast. I have had two that were quite fast. Hmmm. We'll see.
Although I am feeling well now, I do feel ill still if I splurge on meat or dairy too much. So, still working on vegan and really looking forward to a burger.
So, back from a neighborhood pick-nic and actually chilled, I climbed into a tub of warm water......nice. At this event, I ran into someone that I had met a couple of years ago and her response to the surrogacy was typical, but tonight I find myself wishing I could just keep it to myself sometimes. But, with the fact that I am a divorced woman of four and very obviously pregnant, I feel that I must explain to everyone. Not sure if that is right or not, but I am kind of tired of the implication that it would be tough to give the baby up. I just don't see it that way, AT ALL. I do love babies and adored my own, but I have never felt like this baby is anyone else's other than it's parents. I look forward to the day when I hand her over and feel the joy in giving. I realize that I will have typical hormone shifts after birth and there will likely be tears, as there always is, no matter the circumstance. BUT, the resounding sentiment will be that of huge honor and maybe even pride that I was able to give a deserving couple their own child.
I guess what I am saying is that tonight, with being tired any way, I am tired of explaining myself. I realize that I think differently than a lot of people and I really do like that about myself. However, sometimes it leaves me feeling like retreating......
Going to do some writing in my book and lay down, watching this little girl roll around in my belly with awe.......
That I should do posts more often. So, all I can say is that I am finally really feeling well (as long as I don't eat meat and dairy). I am enjoying feeling the baby move lots and actually saw my belly jump recently.
I still lllooooovvvveeee pickles and am thankful that I can eat at all, but am having frequent heartburn and indigestion. It's no fun, but WAY better than nausea!
Right now, I am working on another book about the normalcy of birth and am enjoying collecting unassisted birth stories. My intention is to empower women toward an unhindered birth no matter where they choose that birth to be!
I am married to my best friend and the love of my life. I am first and foremost a home-schooling mother of four children (one in college). Together with my husband, we own a wellness center and yoga studio. I am a certified yoga teacher and in my spare time, I am an author. :-)