Tuesday, December 7, 2010


ONE WHOLE YEAR AGO, I was blessed to be a part of making someone's dreams of being parents come true. As I spent the second day of my two day road trip to Irvine, California (not far from where this journey began), I reflected long and hard on this special day.
The journey has been tough and I am still working on finding my new balance, but the joy and love and pride of the process glows brilliantly in my heart. One year ago, I very difficultly gave birth to a baby that I wasn't ready to birth and let go of. The dynamics of the surrogacy were larger than I could have ever know. But the process of learning and growth that I have been blessed with as a result are priceless. I will never be the same and for this, I am glad.

For the last few weeks, I have been consumed with building a balance in my mind and spirt and it has been working! As I drove for 15 hours, I cried, prayed and sang my heart out, all in love and worship of an amazing God who is guiding my life. It feels amazing to feel good and happy. To feel the joy in my heart and know that life is not only worth living, but an amazing gift to be cherished and embraced.

Today, I chose to let myself remember that the pregnancy and birth and obviously, the letting go was hard. But, more than that, I allowed myself to Meditate on the beauty of it all. It changed me and moulded me more into the woman that I am destined to be. 

Happy birthday to my sweet Mika and much love for that sweetest of Decembers, that I will never forget  <3